A friend’s husband is dying.
We often comment on “how suddenly it happened”, but
we are always dying.
It’s the seeing that is  sudden
It’s knowing when that terrifies
when you are not already aware of your death each moment.

We consider how fortunate we are to not be dying, but in fact it may be the other way around when it comes to the power of understanding death and rebirth.

There is no fulfillment later in life. Ever.
There is no later in life. Ever.
There is only now.

What you are waiting for is here.

She “annoyed” me while I was shaving
About to respond with my typical condescension…
dripping with sarcasm
Stopped…
Told myself
“Its her birthday for God’s sake”
“Let it go”
“Be nice”

Why can’t I treat everyday like it’s her birthday?