The more conscious I become of observing thoughts, the easier it is to see how much time is wasted with incessant dreaming of the future and constantly remaking the past. Whether it is the future in 2 minutes, 2 days, 2 weeks, or 2 years, it is an unending gnawing away at nothing. Even as I type this it wonders off into some fantasy of fame from publishing this blog or writing a book or becoming a teacher.

It is amazing the power the ego has to transform our actions from thought. Tonight I was listening to Eckhart Tolle explain how relationships are for the most part, not really relationships, but are in fact us having relationships with our ego or more precisely our ego having a relationship with our ego while we sit passively by watching our thoughts be kidnapped. It is easy to see how our relationships become such disasters, when the 2 people that are supposed to be so in love, are not even the being interacting.

I have noticed lately, than I catch my thoughts more and more frequently. It is becoming “easier” to see how I run on.

The other thing I am practicing is practicing while dealing with my 2 year old. I want to balance his perceptions of life with calmness, so he has a chance to see long before I did. Intercepting thoughts before they accelerate is decidedly more difficult with a 2 year old in a temper tantrum, but it is also getting a little better. Hope his suffering can end long before mine does.